More Doctor's appointments were made, but I was sure not to see the Doctor I once had. I don't know why, but I felt shame for being so stupid and thinking I wouldn't get pregnant. I was embarassed.
I saw a female Doctor the following day after discovering I was pregnant, who talked me through the methods. I was still unsure of how far into the pregnancy I was, because my irregular periods allowed me to lose track so easily.
The Doctor I saw was kind, but I could see in her eyes she wanted me to keep this baby.
'So many women I have seen wanting abortions and they regret it,' She told me softly. 'I hope you think about this completely before going through with it. It's tougher than you think.'
I was beginning to understand what she meant when she said it was tougher, but I was firm and stuck on my decision. I simply was not ready, and was prepared for the hurt and upset that I deserved from being so careless.
The Doctor continued to speak, as I listened.
'I understandit's difficult, and I wish I could refer you right away. However, I do not support abortion and therefore am not able to refer you. I'll make an appointment with another Doctor for you. This afternoon okay?' She asked me politely.
I was a bit shocked and hurt at what she had told me. It made me feel even more guilty, but I had to deal with the guilt I guess. I agreed to see another Doctor, thanked her for the help and went on my way.
Later that day
After a short rest at home, I returned to the surgery for a further appointment with an older, male Doctor. He was just as polite, asked me how I was feeling, did some tests and referred me. Not before he pressed on my stomach to determine how pregnant I was though.
After some prodding and poking, he told me he thought I may be 3 months. This scared me, as I knew there were more difficult procedures if you were further along in the pregnancy. But to be sure, he sent me to the hospital the following morning for a scan.
Things seemed to be moving fast.
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